But when I was contemplating this post and thinking about which poem to include, it was almost a natural choice to choose the one titled "More Than I Imagined." It;s a poem that I wrote fairly quickly at Starbucks one afternoon and a special place in my heart for. It talks about coming full-circle having the woman I am now address the child I was, telling her it is okay to be awkward, with a stutter and that her self-confidence will soar once she finally finds her niche.
Did I give too much away?? Oh well ... hope you enjoy!
More Than I Imagined
Where do you go when I
seek you? In the depths
of myself I can’t find
you. You’ve shown yourself before,
but have faded into blankness
of a turned
page in retreat from fear
of success and what is
seen for you - A
blankness the world sees through unfinished
canvases, unworked poems
and attempts for the greatness
you think you deserve, seeking
what is known you can
do. But your attempts get
in your way, for it is what you finish
that makes your eyes
smile in fulfillment and accomplishment.
And it is that
accomplishment which is greatness.
But you don’t see it. You
never truly could for the belittling and will-never-
be-able-to’s that eked
away your childhood. But now who I see in me is
not the same hindered
child afraid to speak beyond her scared,
trembled whisper. So now
I ask you to tell me where you are
now that I seek you again.
In the depths of myself I know you’re
there. Show me how to find
you so I can tell you I love you and you’re
more than I ever
imagined.
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